Starting from the horizon

Child often pray, hope for an early grow up, but in the end why did not grow up a little idea. It was in this day can look forward to every passing day. Now that I think can understand the ideas are from that time that it is the longing for the outside world.

My home is in southern Shaanxi, a small village, surrounded by mountains and cut off from the desire I was wonderful. I often wonder how a world is out in the end, one looks at the people you know from here go out, I was eager to want to grow up faster, and also like them to live in those mountains rolling back. That to me is how all the sacred, the mountain outside world is almost a sacred place of my heart.

This supports my belief finished high school, and then could not wait to go out - high school to read the other side of the mountain. Where I first saw the complete I have been looking forward to the world, and lived there for four years (read high-IV). Recall that this is a reluctance in the past: I lived a leisurely life on the outside, its own way, and this is my indulgence the cost of the failure of the college entrance examination. In a repeat of the way through barely admitted to a university, and then flee like to leave.

I have been very grateful to my father, for I am young and frivolous, never give too much blame. In my first entrance, when the failure, the father said nothing. I know for my actions, his heart is very sad, and he wanted me to be able to live active and serious as before, but he has no say.
The most important thing in life is only a few steps, that I almost wrong. I then walked before walking hastily to think, time is also unwittingly galloped away. I stood there looking back, yesterday vivid, put the Buddha was brought up in the moment. I long to live in freedom, can unfettered wonderful to find what I want, and when I found that when a lot of things wrong, but no return.

This is how I walked forward, so that there is no time to stop and think about what I want in the end.
Would be in everyone's life has such a pity: we always have enough time to run forward vigorous profligacy, when one day find the wrong time to start over but found no time.

Another four years later, the University will be on this end, the cruel reality, busy all day looking for work, for work and worry about what time. I finally calm down seriously thought the four years I have done.
Done, that I always wanted to get it? I asked myself, the answer is unknown.

In 2004 I entered the university, living, unexamined lives. Do not know what to do next, do not know in the end what you want.
In 2005, my life started to enter the "right track", made many friends, addicted to video games, keen Gong chopsticks staggered.
In 2006, my junior. This is a good study of it, only to find no less than how are quiet heart, a lot of things started difficult to stop. On the one hand I also want to settle down this last semester to learn a lot to learn, on the other hand is unstoppable indulgence. Entanglement in the hope and disappointment in a year so passed.

In just the past year, I really do not know in the end done. In this way, I also left me in 2007. Is the time flies too fast or slow we go? I hold out hope that all my childhood dream right into every lock of the mountains, and rapid growth, lost.

A few days ago made a phone call to his father, may I say I will not stay here, I want to go out, go to another place. After listening to his father or like five years ago I made the decision to re-read the same time, a touch of simple sentence: how do you think would do it. In any case the start, the result is the same: to rely on their own lives to dominate.i love non normal


Takeshi Kaneshiro starring "Ma Yongzhen", the saying beautiful lines - "If you can start again, I hope that tonight." Yes, you can also start, I believe. Not tonight, but now. Before the sun rises, starting from the horizon, I want the front has a vigorous Love.